The whisper

I was driving into my office on Friday morning and I saw a couple, loaded down with large backpacks, walking on the side of rt. 372. I knew them, (casually) and liked them very much, so turned around to see if they needed a ride. When they said yes, I knew that I was going to drive them all the way…I could feel that familiar sense in my gut saying, “This one is yours Mary.”

As their story unfolded, I found out that they were on a mission of sorts. They belong to a religious community that periodically sends out members to be available at large gatherings for support and aid of those attending, and they were on their way to one. As we drove along, I was rather surprised to find out that they were headed to Rochester NY (about a 5 hour drive) and yet they started out with only a little granola, some water, no money and a lot of faith.

I told them that I wanted to drive them all the way, but had to go back to my office for my appointments, and asked them if I could drop them off at my home and come back and we’d leave from there. They agreed and I must say, I think they were more stunned than I was.

I thought of the alternatives; drive them part way, let them take my car, and neither felt right. I try not to argue with my deeper knowing when it says to do something. Interesting how this came to mind, given my post yesterday about saying no to my mother’s request for me to get involved in her compter buying, and a request from a friend to foster a little dog for 3 weeks (I did tell my friend that if she’s take Luke and our 6 cats for the 3 weeks, I’d be happy to foster her little friend!)…I could feel that both of these, while being wonderful things to do, were not mine to do.

When my inner voice says to do something, the way is made clear, doors open, all the resources and energy I need are available and a sense of being almost taken along on a journey (that is somehow bigger than me), is present. When I try to do something that my inner voice is backing away from, saying, “Don’t do this.” and I go ahead because I think “I should”, it is a draining experience for all.

I drove 11 hours on Friday and got back home late at night feeling uplifted, refreshed and renewed.

“None of us will every accomplish anything excellent or commanding except when he listens to this whisper which is heard by him alone.” 
Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Dissolving the fear in our minds

Luke and his new toy

Luke is our big, long-haired German Shepherd. He is a goofy, loveable guy who makes the most of his life with 6 cats, none of whom want to play with him. He was born different…he didn’t even look like the other puppies in the litter, and by the time he was 6 weeks old, he couldn’t stand on his hind legs, but he was a sweet puppy both in looks and temperament. The breeder was a friend of ours, and offered him to us because he couldn’t be sold. We said yes. It was recommended that we get his hips x-rayed since hip problems can be an issue with shepherds. We didn’t do it.

I knew that if I heard from our vet that Luke had bad hips, I would never be able to get the image out of my mind, and what we imagine and fear, will start to manifest. We decided instead to accept him the way that he was, wiggly hips and all, and only do something medically if he was in pain, which he wasn’t. He will be 4 years old in May.

There is an idea, a belief system, operating in the world that we must prepare for disaster. That worry, fear, and massive amounts of information about every disease, disorder and disaster that could potentially befall us (or those that we love), will help avert those things from coming, and just the opposite is true. What we prepare for, we are making room for, in our lives.

Hyper-vigilance prevents us from being able to listen to the voice within, which is our greatest gift, our best friend. Whether you call that voice the “still small voice of God”, intuition, guidance, guardian angel or gut feeling, it really doesn’t matter, but what does matter is the knowing inside that we can trust ourselves. That if we tune into that “voice”, for direction, we will be guided toward the correct action, toward the lives that we want, instead of the lives that we fear. The Spirit never scares us into action. When I am in-tune with my inner guidance, and I do need to take action about some thing that could end up being a problem, I get a “nudge” that might feel like an unusual thought, and if I don’t listen, it gets more persistent (and this is a good thing), but it doesn’t lead by fear.

“The world we see that seems so insane is the result of a belief system that is not working. To perceive the world differently, we must be willing to change our belief system, let the past slip away, expand our sense of now, and dissolve the fear in our minds“. William James

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on the right track…divine ideas!

Liz Laflamme in her studio

I woke up yesterday morning and really felt inspired to hold a contest on my blog. Within a minute apprehension set in: What would people think? Would they think it was tacky? Would they feel it was somehow shallow? I knew what my motives were…it felt like a “divine idea” which to me is just an idea that pops into consciousness and feels good (fun, adventurous, an answer to a prayer …there is a knowing about it…until the head takes over and starts to analyze it. Then, instead of “divine” it can start to feel “dumb”). Divine ideas are always for our expansion, but expanding also comes with fear of the unknown.

I started writing anyway….wasn’t sure it would be published but I have found that if it isn’t right, the energy around it will fall away (I am aware that not all of my ideas are divine… some really are dumb and those don’t, hopefully, go anywhere). Sometimes  though, I cannot tell, so I start. There is a wonderful quote by Will Rogers, “You may be on the right track, but you are going to get run over if you don’t move.“ There comes a time in life that we must push out from the shore, so to speak,…leave the safety of staying small, trying to guess what other people want/need instead of listening to our own inner voice, if we are going to live bigger lives and become who we are meant to be.

The day before my “contest blog”  I had just met (and gotten my hair cut by) Liz LaFlamme. I walked into her salon and she shouted a very friendly, arms-wide-open greeting…like she had known me forever. I instantly liked her.  She was working on someone’s hair when I arrived and was talking about going to New York City to a past life regression seminar. The woman in the chair said she wasn’t really interested (and her body language was showing it too) in that stuff, but it did not change Liz. She didn’t apologize for thoughts or her interests…she was just being herself, and that is no small thing in a world that likes to get people into “manageable” little boxes!

…and I think that as long as we are alive we will all be unfolding…coming out of little boxes, that we didn’t even know we were in until we had a dream…an idea…a hope or wish that seems to just spring up. Happy springing to everyone today!!

 

 

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