Yesterday was a day that I couldn’t quite get comfortable in my own skin. I had been looking forward to catching up on emails, phone calls and reading . I sat down at my computer and then thought that I had better take the sheets off the line before it rained. I got them inside, but they didn’t make it out of the living room. I piled them on the chair and figured I’d bring them upstairs when I went up to shut the windows. I sat back at my computer and remembered a book that I had been meaning to buy on Amazon. As I read the reviews, I had to check out the dish towels with the fish pattern. They would make a perfect house-warming present. A half hour later, I realized the thunder had gotten louder so I went upstairs to close the windows. I left the sheets downstairs.
I meditated and must have fallen asleep because I “woke up” when my chime played. I picked up a novel that was OK. The inn-keeper was serving tea to guests and that sounded perfect….the peaceful scene: pot of fragrant tea steeping, breathing deeply, sitting calmly on the couch while the tea brewed, watching the rain. I made the tea and drank it in 5 minutes. “OK…what do we do now?” …my mind was like being stuck in the car, on a long trip, with a bored 10-year-old.
About 2pm I decided to take a nap. I went back upstairs, without the sheets, and stretched out across the bed. I wasn’t really tired. I just wanted a break from me. I started to say, “What is wrong with you Mary?!” but I know better. Never ask a question that your ego is waiting to answer in the voice of your angry 5th grade teacher, because it will sound like this: “I’ll tell you what is wrong with you missy…You are lazy, you are unfocused, you drink too much caffeine….” Some days are just like this. So what? Today is a new day….I put the sheets away before I sat down to write!