A couple of weeks ago, I wrote that Gordon Ramsay was coming to our little town (Cambridge NY) to film an episode of his new series, Hotel Hell. I also wrote that I didn’t have any interest in watching it, which was true. During the buildup to the show, the town was buzzing with energy. Some people were excited and happy, others indifferent or critical. As I began to listen and observe what was happening around me (and inside of me), it felt like there was the potential for a good time, but I also watched myself trying to be uninterested. There was a part of me that thought I shouldn’t care that this was happening.
One of my “rules for living” is to see the world as freshly as possible, to always trust my intuitive feelings, and to go with the positive pull of Life, even when it doesn’t makes sense. Especially when it doesn’t make sense. Even when it means that I might look foolish. I finally let myself be pulled into the adventure, until I noticed that every time I drove into town, I was trying to catch a glimpse of the chef and crew.
When several people in town (who read my blog) asked me what I thought about it all, and I said I thought it was fun, I was met with questioning looks like, “What? I thought you wrote that you didn’t like things like this?” The gist of what I had previously written was, “trust your feelings”. If you are watching or participating in something that is making you uncomfortable and tense, if a deep inner voice (not the ego’s critical, fearful, judgemental voice) is saying, “this is wrong, this doesn’t feel good. Stop it. Get out.” then listen to it. Don’t be afraid of what the crowd will think, follow your own heart. I wrote that what I observe, I will eventually feel in my body and energy field, and I was observing a lot of fun.
A few days before the actual filming started, I thought, “I would like to be invited over there”. That was it. I had the thought and let it go. Friday afternoon, I was finishing up some email correspondence and a friend called and said, “I have been invited to the hotel for a special surprise Saturday morning and can bring a couple of friends. Do you want to come?” I was speechless. My previous intention came to mind instantly and I said yes!
I wrote in my blog on Friday that noticing when things were different was one of the ways to open doors, and by Saturday evening, I could have filled several pages with “What was different in the past 24 hrs!”
Every single person, event and circumstance is multi-faceted. When someone says to me that a person is “a jerk”, I know that they mean that the side of that person being shown to them is a jerk. We call out the aspects of life that fit our belief systems. I still don’t want to watch reality TV, have no interest in witnessing anyone get yelled at, or put down, but this was not the part of the event that I lined up with. The Saturday surprise was a blast. (I am not allowed to talk about what happened until after the show airs sometime in the Spring). Everyone was kind and fun and we had a delicious time!
“It is always with excitement that I wake up in the morning wondering what my intuition will toss up to me, like gifts from the sea. I work with it and rely on it. It’s my partner“. Jonas Salk