One thing that I remind myself of, many times a day, is that I am connected to all, (below the surface level of apparent separation) …and so is everyone else. When I have a inner-knowing about something, even if I can’t explain it from a conscious, reasoning point of view, I listen to it. I trust it. If we were all put under gigantic microscopes, we would look like masses of vibrating energy and all of us have the ability to “feel” this energy because we are all fundamentally connected.
In my current favorite movie, Lost in Austen*, the main character Amanda is telling her mother that she doesn’t want to marry her boyfriend because she doesn’t trust him. Her mother dismisses this and tries to talk Amanda into “seeing reason” (i.e. ignoring her intuition, her gut feeling, and reasoning the situation out). The mother is the perfect example of the egoic mind saying, “stay small, stay within what you know, don’t be silly and trust your feelings”.
Several years ago, I was asked, by a friend, to meet with a man who wanted to work on a project with me. I felt ill at ease, but since the sound of the project was something that I had been thinking about before her call, I thought that maybe I was just scared and that I’d miss an opportunity if I didn’t say yes, so I agreed to meet with him. Within a minute of being in his presence, I wanted to run out of the room. Even though he was smiling and charming, his energy was so dense and dark that I almost felt afraid. I declined the offer, and later heard that the project ended up costing quite a bit (in time and energy) to the people involved. This man’s erratic behaviour ultimately alienated everyone and the project never came to fruition.
“Who you are speaks so loudly, I cannot hear what you’re saying” Ralph Waldo Emerson
*I’ve recommended this movie to everyone that I know, and I am pretty sure that nobody has yet watched it, but none the less, it is currently my all-time favorite movie. The acting is amazing and the spirit of it is wonderful and fun. If you aren’t familiar with the Jane Austen novel, Pride and Prejudice, you might want to read up on it a bit before watching.