A very comforting thought to me, is that I don’t have to be perfect for wonderful things to show up in my life. I remember when Jack and I were in the process of buying the home that we are now living in. I wanted it so bad, and I was so afraid it wouldn’t happen, I almost made myself sick. When I think back on how I must have looked (energetically), “a spring wound a little too tight” would fit. And yet, it did all work, even with a few sleepless nights, irrational arguments, and the worried thoughts that seemed to jump out of thin air and ambush me… and it worked in such a magical and wonderful way (one that I couldn’t have imagined or made happen), that it is easy in hindsight to see the hand of the Divine in it all along.
I was reading something the other day, about lining-up (inside) with our dreams and it basically said, “The one thing that you must watch for is negative thought. Doubt, fear or envy will hold up your manifestation indefinitely.”
I’m sorry, this is just not very helpful! It’s unrealistic and discouraging, and it intimates that we must become enlightened (who else never has a negative thought?) before we can experience the lives of our dreams. It also reminds me of the worst part of religion…the idea that there is a God sitting somewhere watching our every move, just waiting for us to mess up so we can be punished, or our Good can be withheld, or we can be taught a lesson.
We are all in the process of learning, making some mistakes, doing some things right, wondering, pondering, knowing and forgetting. …but there is a Grace, an Energy, that is huge and good and always flowing and quietly comforting us as it calls us to move along with it (with some delightful surprises along the way!).
“Don’t think of the things you didn’t get after praying, think of the countless blessings God gave you without asking.” Anonymous