There’s been so much good stuff happening in my life lately, and quite a bit of it I’ve shared here on the blog, but some I’ve held back on. Not because I don’t want to share my life with you. I do. But sometimes, reading about a person’s life (when they are in a period where everything seems to be so wonderful) doesn’t feel that great.
For years, I couldn’t look at the Omega Institute’s catalogue (and all of the pages with smiling faces of the spiritual teachers that would be holding workshops the following summer) without jealously. Instead of feeling inspired by reading about their accomplishments; books published, appearances on Oprah ect., I felt less than and would think, “what is wrong with me?!” Their lives felt different from mine and if I had to articulate what that difference was, I would have said that I didn’t measure up, that I was somehow not as smart, nice, talented, cleaver, friendly, positive, enlightened, connected, ambitious, young……
Everyone I know goes through periods of feeling like their lives are missing something, be it friends, career, an intimate relationship, money, health…and when we are going through one of these spells, and we look at other people’s lives (that seem to have all of these things and more) sometimes it can make us feel worse; like we are fundamentally flawed…at least this is true for me, and I’ve talked to enough people in my life to even dare say that this might be a part of the human condition.
This is what I started to write about yesterday, but wasn’t ready yet. As I sat outside this morning (at 5 a.m.), this idea came up again, and as I considered whether I’d give it another try today or not, I heard an owl call. Then I heard another call back. This lasted for about a minute and I knew it was a sign to move ahead with today’s post. …about sometimes feeling different, sometimes feeling defective, sometimes feeling alone, sometimes feeling like we’ve missed the boat….
Today’s message is: You have not! You are an infinitely important part of this world….of the story of this world, that is being written every moment of every day. I am writing a story-book life and you are in it….and you are writing one too, and I’m in yours.