The other day I woke up with a stomach ache that got worse as the morning progressed. I tried to keep my mind on positive thoughts of health, and then I had the thought, “Maybe this is a ‘healing crisis’ and I’m letting go of old stored-up junk that needs to be released.” This thought helped me relax somewhat and as I closed my eyes and became very still, another thought came to me which was more of a surprise, “This pain is caused from poisonous thinking. There isn’t any bad thing stuck inside of you. You are a perfect point of God-consciousness. It’s time to let that out.”
As I stayed very still, the words of Robert Browning and releasing the imprisoned splendor also came to mind and I thought, “Could it be that I’ve been holding the Goodness inside, and when I relax and open up a wonderful, beautiful, glorious Self will emerge?!”
So many of us on the conscious spiritual path are constantly looking for what’s wrong with us. Maybe we need another “discipline” or one more workshop where we scream, cry, meditate for 12 hrs a day, fast, pray, maintain a week of silence, eat raw foods only, breath in just the right way, sit in the lotus position until our legs fall asleep (and try not to notice this), ….maybe then we’ll expel all of the crap inside of us. That was how I viewed the spiritual journey; almost like I was on a search and destroy mission, looking for my short comings and mercilessly weeding them out,… and when I consider what I was thinking on the morning I woke up with a stomach ache, I can see the remnants of this way of thinking still intact.
Searching for what is wrong, believing that we are fundamentally flawed, only brings us more evidence of this…even though it’s not the Truth. Deep down we are all Divine Love, all of us points of God-consciousness in varying stages of waking up to this Truth, and today is the perfect day to become aware of this!
“Truth is within ourselves; it takes no rise
From outward things, whate’er you may believe.
There is an inmost centre in us all,
Where truth abides in fulness; and around,
Wall upon wall, the gross flesh hems it in,
This perfect, clear perception – which is truth.
A baffling and perverting carnal mesh
Binds it, and makes all error: and to KNOW
Rather consists in opening out a way
Whence the imprisoned splendour may escape,
Than in effecting entry for a light
Supposed to be without.”
From “Paracelsus” by Robert Browning