Maybe one of the craziest thoughts that I’ve had in my life (and I’ve had many) is, “I should be further along than I am”. It doesn’t matter if this thought comes in response to me thinking about my work, exercise, current project, money, spirituality, situation with health, relationships, …the list can be endless, and the thought always leaves me with the same discouraged and deflated feeling: my life doesn’t quite measure up.
What I now know is that when a thought makes me feel that way, it is untrue.
I may have believed it for all of my life, and everyone around me may believe it too, but it is not the Truth of my being, and so my inner self, my Divine connection, is letting me know that my thinking is off, and this is felt by inner conflict (either in my body, emotions or both).
How could I possibly not be far enough along in any area of my life?! This presumes that there have been an infinite number of Mary Muncil’s (currently living and ones who have come before me) marching along like dolls on an assembly line, all being inspected at certain quality control check points to see if they pass. The thought that I am not far enough along presumes that I’m approaching one of these, and am about to fail, and in that moment, the thought terrorizes me. It also presumes that my unique life experiences, with all of the twists and turns, successes and failures, have been of little or no value, compared to……
And that is the crux of the matter. Compared to. How could one of us be compared to anyone else, and what is the value in that? Comparing is a bad habit of the egoic mind, period. It is a way for the ego to feel temporarily superior or inferior to…. someone always comes out on top, which means someone else is always underneath.
Comparing (judging) has been used forever to motivate, push and prod people along, but like any archaic tool, there comes a time when it should be retired.
No one could be better at being me than me. No one could be better at being you than you. No human being could be further along your path of being the unique you, than you. You are right where you are supposed to be. You are the perfect you.
“Every man is more than just himself; he also represents the unique, the very special and always significant and remarkable point at which the world’s phenomena intersect, only once in this way, and never again.” Hermann Hesse