One of the most startling experiences in my life happened when I began to see that every being and every situation I encountered was showing me an aspect of myself. I’d heard about this for years in statements like,”We live in a holographic universe”, but I never really knew what it meant, because I hadn’t had the conscious experience of it.
Then, a few years ago, I started to experience it. People would be talking to me about an incident in their lives and I would think, “Wow, how odd. I just had a dream about that very thing last night.” or “I just saw the same scene (one they were describing to me) on my run this morning.” Sometimes, a conflict that was being described to me, was one that I had just gone through, or was currently going through, in my own life.
Of course I didn’t always say this, often it wasn’t appropriate, especially when it happened during my time with a client. But I noticed. And the more that I noticed it, the more it seemed to happen. I began to realize that everything that was happening “around me” (apparently outside of me) was not out there at all. I also saw that when I cleared up confusion within myself, those closest to me seemed to become clear as well.
I still don’t understand this. I can read all of the logical explanations and I can grasp (on an intellectual level) what is being said, but the greater understanding for me is that this is an infinitely mysterious and magical place that I live in: One which offers me endless opportunities to see myself, grow, open up, and expand into higher awareness at every moment; awareness that you and I are not separate, cannot be separated, ever.
And what I think about you, I am really thinking about myself.
How could this not be true if we are one? I discovered that there is no exception to this rule. I cannot profess, “We are all one. We are all Love” and then say, “Except for my father, sister, brother, neighbor, ex-husband, ex-wife, …. who I am nothing like. I am not one with them!” But I am. I started to realize that whatever emotion I felt toward someone (love, affection, aversion, strong dislike) were all aspects of myself. I noticed that when I had a strong negative reaction to anyone, all I had to do was to say to myself, “Show me where I am not seeing this in myself”, and it would be revealed. This isn’t for the faint of heart. It’s much more appealing (to the egoic mind) to point the finger.
When I am around someone who I find repulsive, my natural inclination is to want to distance myself from him or her. I want to get as far away as possible from “them”. But I found I could run away forever and yet around every corner “they” were there again. Maybe in a different guise, but always with the same emotional-feeling tone. I ran into myself day and night until I stopped running and faced them/me.
I certainly don’t mean to say that I have the full revelation of being one with all life at all times, or even most of the time, but it is happening more and more. And as a natural consequence, I don’t feel as though I need to set up strict “boundaries” or protection anymore….unless of course I think that I need to protect myself from my own crappy thinking (about myself or others). Whatever and whoever is in (or out of) my life at this moment, is a gift to me. This is how I try to see my world, and when I remember to do this, life is very good.
“When I walk into a room, I know that everyone in it loves me. I just don’t expect them to realize it yet.” Byron Katie from, Question Your Thinking, Change The World”