Jack and I watched a wonderful show, Last Tango in Halifax, several weeks ago, on Netflix. When we came to the end of season 1, we realized that although season 2 had already been released by the BBC, it was not available here in the US. This has happened before, and in the past I’ve always felt a little disappointed and resigned to the fact that we would just need to wait, but this time I thought, “I am going to buy the season 2 dvd anyway, even though it only plays on Region 2 dvd players, and something will open up”. I can remember a feeling of (small) adventure and good risk when I took this step, like, “Do I dare do this?”
It arrived and I became aware of a whole new world of dvd-player “hacks”. It seems that these players are programmed to only play dvds from certain “regions” of the world but they can be changed to be “region free”. It took me some time to figure out how to change ours, but I did it, and I felt elated when it played.
The way was there all along but it didn’t become apparent to me until I took the step to purchase the dvd. Something happens when we take a step toward our desire, even when in the moment we cannot see how it could happen. Buying the dvd was a very small step, but it showed faith, and it opened a door.
It wasn’t a huge investment. I didn’t go into debt to do it, or put us in a precarious situation (financially, emotionally or physically) but funny as it seems in the retelling, it did feel like a risk. Sometimes we think that we need to make sweeping changes in our lives to move forward, but I am beginning to see a sweet, little, quieter, way….a way that I have missed in my “rushing to the next moment as fast as I can go” past…..I am paying attention now to these little steps, these little prompts to do something new and I can feel myself open up, in the most delightful way, as I do it. Even now as I write I can feel my heart expanding.
Another thought (that just popped into my mind as I began to close this post) is what I have been saying to myself lately (and especially over the past 6 weeks): “My life is filled with happy, wonderful, expansive, work and experiences. Everything is getting better and better. I love my life.”
“Big doors swing on little hinges.” W. Clement Stone