When I wrote a novel, a couple of years ago, I had no idea that the very things I had written about would begin to happen in my own life. I wrote the novel for its own sake. The process was an adventure (even though I did, at times…many times, need to discipline myself to sit down and write). The main character and heroine of the story, Maggie, became someone who I loved and still do. …maybe that is why the story actually came to life; because I loved it.
I try not to talk about things that don’t expand the world, my world, into a more loving place, and I do the same with what I write. If I approach an issue or something that I perceive to be a problem, with low energy, frustration, anger, disappointment, or some other unhappy feeling, and try to make sense of it, my mind will probably concoct a story, and the story will have a victim (usually me) and a villain (usually them). When I do this, I am also creating my world, but it isn’t one that I love.
For much of my life, I didn’t realize that I had the power to create (through thought and words*) my life, my world. If something happened that I didn’t like, or I thought someone was being unfair to me, I would mull over the injustice, over and over, in my worn-out mind. I would get on, and stay on, a very unhappy track; rehearse it, relive it, and feel it, until it became “my reality”…a reality that I didn’t love but felt powerless to change. But I have woken up enough to see that I am never powerless, none of us are.
I’m not saying that it is easy. Focusing on a happier life, a better outcome, a scenario that would be lovely, when “awful reality” is staring me in the face (and my mind is screaming at me to follow it into the dark alley of doom, disappointment, disease, and disaster) can be the hardest work that I do.
Refusing to entertain unhappy scenarios, and to see only the “good” is truly heroic thinking. But it is truly what we are here to do. We are here to express love….to love life, to love our “creations”. If I don’t love something that is in my life, either I am looking at it the wrong way, or I have created a scenario and a story that is causing me pain…and I have the power to change that.
“Words are bodies or forces which move spirally and return in due season to cross the lives of their creators.” from The Power of the Spoken Word, published in 1945, Florence Scovel Shinn
*Write Away! Workshop If you are interested in working with me and learning a new way to envision your world through writing I am offering a workshop (that I have named Write Away!) on an ongoing basis. I put it up on my blog a couple of times and it has been so well-received that I’ve decided to make it a permanent part of the work that I offer. The link to the new page on my blog is: https://whitefeatherfarm.wordpress.com/write-away
If you can’t access the page, or if you have any questions (like, “Do I need to be a writer to do this work?”…the answer is No to that!, please email me and I will send you the information. firstname.lastname@example.org