allowing ourselves to float

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We would appreciate some of that cheese you’re eating

We listed our home for sale last week*. When the idea first came to me, it seemed frightening. The thought, “How can we sell our home when we don’t have another to move to?” screamed in my head, almost commanding me to back down. But it was followed by a deeper voice that said, “You are not selling your home today. You are listing it for sale. This is step 1”.

Jack was in agreement with listing our home, until we started to get phone calls and appointments for showings, and then he began to echo the sentiment of my earlier fear, so I just repeated what was given to me and said, “We did not sell our home, we listed it for sale. This was only our first step. If it isn’t right for us, nothing will happen, but if it is right, then step 2 will be given and we’ll take that then.”

This felt so right to me, but he didn’t even seem to take the concept in, and kept saying, “We can’t move without knowing where we are going!”

The spiritual teacher, Byron Katie, once said, “If you want fear and terror on purpose, get a future” and that was where Jack was. He was not staying in the moment, in the now, on step 1…if the steps could be numbered, he was probably on step 13, and it didn’t look good. In his vision we were pitiful, homeless, and broke, living from hand-to-mouth, begging for food for our animals and ourselves. I’m exaggerating here…but only a little.

After 3 days of utter agony, refusing to listen to anything that I offered, he talked with a friend who was able to bring him back to his center and the knowing that he only need stay in the moment and trust the larger part of himself. He needed to remember that he wouldn’t be led down a merry path, only to be dropped at the end.

 

Trust. Trust in what?

 

Over the past few months, I’ve been led to a new awareness of the Goodness that surrounds us all; the Goodness that we are an intricate, intimate part of, and so I have begun to trust in a new way that all really is well and that my part is to show up, be open, take action when it feels like I’m being asked to do so, and stay away from any fearful-mind stories. I’m not saying that those fearful thoughts don’t enter my consciousness, because they do, but they are different now. They don’t hold the same energy as before and I can see them for what they are…phantoms of old beliefs.

I want to live my life as if it is a grand adventure and I cannot do this if I need to plan out each step. But seriously, even if I, or you, or Jack, could plan out each step of our lives, would Life conform to that? When has that really ever happened, and is it even an adventure if by some chance “it” did turn out exactly as we planned?

And there is also the idea that anything that I (Mary Muncil, the little me) plan has to be teeny tiny compared to what the whole of me (divine mind combined with all of the other divine minds that make up ALL THAT IS) has in store.

This is the SELF that I trust.

Many years ago, I picked up the book, Illusions, by Richard Bach and was completely floored by the introduction, which I share with you below.

Once there lived a village of creatures along the bottom of a great crystal river. The current of the river swept silently over them all — young and old, rich and poor, good and evil — the current going its own way, knowing only its own crystal self.

Each creature in its own manner clung tightly to the twigs and rocks of the river bottom, for clinging was their way of life, and resisting the current was what each had learned from birth.

But one creature said at last, “I am tired of clinging. Though I cannot see it with my eyes, I trust that the current knows where it is going. I shall let go, and let it take me where it will. Clinging, I shall die of boredom.”

The other creatures laughed and said, “Fool! Let go, and that current you worship will throw you tumbled and smashed against the rocks, and you will die quicker than boredom!”

But the one heeded them not, and taking a breath did let go, and at once was tumbled and smashed by the current across the rocks.

Yet in time, as the creature refused to cling again, the current lifted him free from the bottom, and he was bruised and hurt no more.

And the creatures downstream, to whom he was a stranger, cried, “See a miracle! A creature like ourselves, yet he flies! See the messiah, come to save us all!”

And the one carried in the current said, “I am no more messiah than you. The river delights to lift us free, if only we dare let go. Our true work is this voyage, this adventure….”

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  • Introduction to the book, Illusions, by Richard Bach

 

*our home is listed on Zillow, 148 Dunbar Rd. Cambridge, NY 12816. There are lots of photographs. If you would like more information, feel free to email me at mmuncil@verizon.net.

Also, Jack and I are showing our work (44 pieces in total) from August 19th through Labor Day, at Gallery 668 in Battenville, NY. The opening is August 19th from 4-6 p.m. We will both be there as well as a number of other artists. For more information, feel free to email me at mmuncil@verizon.net

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preview of some of our work at 668 GALLERY

13 thoughts on “allowing ourselves to float

  1. Mary, tell Jack to fear not. We have 2 green, glorious acres you’re welcome to share; you’ll never be homeless!! We’ll leave the light on for you. 🙂

  2. We are also selling our home of 25 wonderful years, Mary. Step 1 for me was to consider it and two years later we took the step to put it on the market. We don’t know what the next step is, either, and both of us are a little excited and a little anxious about what will be presented next. I trust completely that it will also be wonderful.

    • How wonderful, Cheryl…please feel free to pass your listing along to me and I will keep my ears and eyes open, and share your listing with anyone who is looking for a delightful home! Love,
      Mary

  3. Dearest Mary & Jack,

    How exciting! What grand adventures await ….. trust the process to unfold “for you” as you float along …. 🌞🎶🌈

    Fabulous invitation from Cheryl!

    Where would you like to be? Any thoughts?

    Love Richard Bach’s books ❤ Time to read this one again

    Hugs, love & blessings,
    Monika
    ❤❤❤

  4. Love you Jack and Mary!

    Uncertainty can cause stress, leading to an unhealthy mind and body. I can relate, to sensing the choking of holding on, and feeling free from letting go. I believe holding on is a security blanket for me, I have a problem with change and transition. I appreciate how you were able to identify and articulate your thought and emotion.

    Hugs to you both!

    • And love to you and your kids too, Dorothy! We think of you so often and hope to see your beautiful self someday soon (are you right in line for the eclipse down there?) Love, Mary and Jack

  5. Lets all go to Cheryl’s green acres. Whatever turns up for you and Jack Mary, I know it will be unplanned and perfect.

  6. Hi Mary – your post was so timely for my husband and me. The universe at work – we are planning on moving, too. From a “safe and comfortable” existence in an over 55 community that we have lived in for 4.5 years, but never really felt a part of (for various reasons). So we began looking and have found a place out in the country (we used to live in semi-country before this community). We haven’t put a bid in yet but probably will soon. We have gone over all the ifs and buts, haven’t put our house on the market yet, and we are both in our mid-60s. Most of our family thinks we are a bit crazy to do this but are understanding and see our point of view. We have plotted and planned to the nth degree to try and see all the different faces the future could present if we moved out there. But as your post says, when has it ever really happened the way you plan it? We want our lives to be an adventure, not a “safe place of boredom (at least for us). I can’t wait to share this with my husband – he will “get it”. We need to trust that we are on the right path – it feels right.

    I wish all the best for you and think you and Jack are going to find your spot, your home, the next place you need to be – as you pointed out – it will all happen in time. Bless you both! I look forward to reading of the progress. And good luck at the show – I’m sure you will sell your art – it is always lovely and meaningful!

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