Oh my goodness, these past few months have been amazing, challenging, wonderful, frightening, fun, dull, and at the deepest level, so right. I listed my home for sale in mid-January. It sold in 12 days. The closing was on April 1st. I moved into my new home (in Montpelier, Vermont) on April 1st. My divorce was finalized on February 5th, which just happened to be the beginning of the Chinese New Year, and on that day I also spoke with one of the women who had had a significant relationship with my ex. She was able to clarify so much.
I’d had a dream last summer that things were going to move quickly. In the dream, I stopped myself for fear that I would be out of control. When I awoke, I told myself, my inner self, “OK. I won’t let go of the thread to my new life. I am ready. Take me.” And did it ever!
I now realize that the key which ultimately set me free was my willingness to see how the behaviors of my ex mirrored my own feelings about myself. I saw the deception that I’d engaged in by closing my eyes to the truth. I saw how I’d stayed in something that was not right for fear of what my life would be if I left. What can I call this but deception? What is this but a lie. I never said to my ex, “Hey…I’m not sure that I love you. I definitely don’t trust you, but I am afraid that I can’t make it financially, and I also feel too old to start again, so I’m just going to stay here, OK?” Nope. I didn’t do that.
So what now? As I stand in this new place; a town that I love beyond words, work that is more fulfilling than ever, and inner peace which feels like heaven, I offer this to you, “Life will show you what you need to get free. You can trust it….it will lead you home.”
I am offering a new 2 part series that I’ve named, “Mirror, Mirror”. In this series, we’ll work together to help you see, and own, the situations in your life that feel like they are blocking you from the life you sense you are missing. The series will involve two (45 minute) phone conversations (or if you’d like to come to Montpelier, we can meet in person). The cost is $90.00. If this speaks to you, please contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org and we’ll set up our time to meet.