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Noah and Bodhi

Noah and Bodhi are best pals. Years ago, I had the feeling that Noah needed a play mate, so I went to the shelter and found Bodhi. I still marvel at this. None of the cats that I’ve had have ever played together. What made me think that this was even possible? It has been 9 years since we brought Bodhi home and he and Noah are still playing together.

Jack and I watched the first season of the British T.V. show, Derek (starring Ricky Gervais), last week. I hadn’t heard of it before Netflix sent a notice that it was now available for streaming, but what made me want to give it a try was the description of the main character. It said, “Derek always looks for the good in every situation”. We did give it a try, and we loved it. It is funny and deeply moving. I was telling a friend (who watches a lot of tv) about it and before I even finished he said, “I don’t like British humor.” End of story.

I wanted to say, “It is so much more than that! It is about love and life and kindness.” But he didn’t want to hear anything more about it.


How many times have I labeled things as unappealing/unacceptable and by doing so, missed out?

One of our favorite little restaurants (a place that serves comfort food, at a great price, with friendly owners and staff that have been there forever) is a sports bar/restaurant in North Bennington, VT. When I first met Jack he wanted to take me there for dinner, but as  we drove up to the place I was very turned off.  I remember thinking,  “This is a sports bar. I’m not eating here.” And I didn’t. For 5 years I stayed away. I judged it (without ever going inside) as noisy, crass and tacky.

One day, I changed (opened) my mind and decided to give it a try. We’ve been loyal customers ever since.

I could fill a book with examples of where I have been wrong (limited) in my thinking about people, places, and experiences, and to be completely honest, I could probably fill two books with examples of where I have followed my intuitive knowing and have been rewarded with a rich and lovely outcome.

If I left my decision-making and actions up to my conscious/egoic mind, I’d probably never go anywhere; I’d be too suspicious. The egoic mind bases all of its decisions and reasoning on the past and many times, on an unhappy past (and of course it is the one making up, and framing, the past so it fits into a small, neat mold). It is afraid of the new so it tells us that it won’t be good, it is dangerous, or at the very least unappealing and a waste of time.

I am not putting down the conscious mind. It has its place, its very important place, as a servant of the larger, intuitive  mind, which must be felt at a deep level, and which never explains,… it only points the way to more life.

“Intuition will tell the thinking mind where to look next.” Jonas Salk


The open door of intuition: The Spirit of Truth

Noah heading out into the garden this morning

Noah heading out into the garden this morning

Have you ever just known that something was right? Even when it didn’t make sense? Even when there was no way that it was possible? And have you ever held your belief anyway; persistently turning away from those voices of doubt and reason (the voices that were really in your own mind, but seemed to be coming out of the mouths of people around you…the ones who didn’t want you to be disappointed or deluded enough to believe in something that you couldn’t figure out the “hows” of?).

I love hearing stories of how others did just this: held their vision and came to see it become their reality. If you have a story that you would like to share; a story of hope (when things seemed hopeless), faith beyond your ability to understand, or healing, please tell it here. There are an awful lot of stories that we hear everyday of “senseless” violence, loss, and hatred…and I know that there are so many, many more stories of “senseless” (we can’t understand how this wonderful thing happened) blessings, recovery, and Love.”…..Grace, Goodness, and Love may not make sense to our small, limited selves, but they are who we really are at our centers.

Faith does not depend on physical facts or on the evidence of the senses because it is born of intuition, or the Spirit of Truth, ever living at the center of our being. Its action is infinitely higher than that of reason. It is founded on Truth, while reasoning or intellectual argument is founded on evidence of the senses and is not reliable.

Intuition is the open end, within one’s own being, of the invisible channel ever connecting each individual with God. Faith is, as it were, a ray of light shot out from the central sun, God, one end of which ray comes into your being and mine through the open door of intuition.” from,  Lessons in Truth, by H. Emilie Cady (1848-1941)

Ask, wait, listen, trust…act

Luke in the back seat of my car

Luke (in the back seat of the car)

I’ve been hesitant about writing about today’s topic/post for a while. I’ve really wanted to do it, but kept thinking, “Advice and suggestions are not the focus of this blog” and this seemed dangerously close to both. Yet, a little voice kept nudging me to do it.

Last summer, Luke (our 5-year-old long-haired German Shepherd) started scratching more than usual and began to lose his fur. We tried changing his food, bathed him with herbal remedies, gave him fish oil supplements, and he just got worse. His once big bushy tail, looked more like a very large rat’s tail, and he had patches of hard, leather-like skin where his fur was completely gone.

Our vet put him on steroids. That worked on the itching until the prescription ran out, and he started itching again. Finally they did a blood-test and determined that he had a poorly functioning thyroid gland (most probably the result of the steroids) and he would have to stay on both thyroid and steroid meds for the rest of his life. We tried this regime for a month but the whole thing felt wrong to me, so I began asking Spirit for a solution.

On a follow-up visit to the vet, the words, “How about trying a raw diet?” just sprang from my mouth. I knew nothing about raw diets at all. Jack and I were both surprised when our vet thought it was a very good idea. I asked him for suggestions on how to get started and he said, ‘There’s a ton of information on-line, find something that appeals to you.” I felt like I was jumping off a cliff when I decided to do this. I didn’t know anyone else* who was feeding this way but it felt right, so we took the plunge.

We switched him completely off his current food and onto a raw (meat and bones) diet and stopped all the meds. He improved almost overnight. He stopped scratching within a few days, seemed to have more energy than he’d had since he was a puppy, and his fur slowly grew back even fuller than before. I also switched the cats to a part raw, part canned diet and the heavy ones lost weight while our light-weights (Noah and Bodhi) gained a little.

One of the reasons why I was hesitant to write about this was I didn’t want anyone (who isn’t doing this type of diet) to feel guilty, defensive, or think I was saying, “This is the only way to feed your pet and you are wrong if you don’t do it.”

But it is also really good information and I felt compelled by something (greater than my concerns about how it might be received) to share it.  Maybe it is the answer to someone’s prayer out there. Maybe that is why I felt I had to write this….I’m not sure.

What I am sure of is when something I’m doing doesn’t feel right to me, and I ask the larger, more expanded part of Myself for guidance, it always comes, and I can always trust it.

There is a universal, intelligent, life force that exists within everyone and everything. It resides within each one of us as a deep wisdom, an inner knowing. We can access this wonderful source of knowledge and wisdom through our intuition; an inner sense that tells us what feels right and true for us at any given moment.”Shakti Gawain

*it wasn’t until after we started Luke on a raw diet that I found out how many other people were doing the same. I even ran into one of the monks (who we had gotten Luke from as a puppy) told him about it, and was very surprised to hear that they used to feed raw too, but it became too much for them (although he thought it was the best diet).

Divine territory

I’m not sure who took this photo but I love it! It was sent by a friend (thank you Susan) with the caption, “Did you lose a cat?”

Most of us want to figure everything out. We want to squeeze this vast, incomprehensible “All” into something manageable and small enough to satisfy our reasoning, conscious minds, while there is a brilliant, genius Mind within every one of us just waiting to be given a chance. We are connected to (and an integral part of) The Divine, The Whole, The Infinite, and it offers constant direction and guidance that is beyond our figuring.

This “inner knowing” has nothing to do with logical arguments or reasoning, doesn’t take into consideration facts, the past, or what has always happened. It offers fresh, new, life-changing direction, ideas and flashes of insight, and it is ours for the asking. If you are facing a challenge that seems beyond anything that you can figure out, good. You are in the territory of the Divine. Focus on the outcome that you would love to see. Hold that vision and let the bigger part of you work things out.

“Conclusions arrived at through reasoning have very little or no influence in altering the course of our lives.” Carlos Castaneda (From The Fire Within)

Listening “in”

Getting quiet

8 years ago, I attended a retreat in Alabama and did a fire-walk. In the few days leading up to the actual walk, the leader kept encouraging us to listen to our inner voices, to be sure it would be safe for us (personally) to do. This involved getting quiet (both inside and out), settling down and not acting out of either fear or nervous excitement.

I could feel that it was right for me. I didn’t feel cocky or arrogant, and the thought of it made my stomach flip, but in an exciting way. I know the difference between excited expectation of something totally out of my comfort zone, and the inner discomfort that says “this is not a good idea for you”, or the other voice that gets really excited about something but within a few days, the energy drains away and I see clearly that it was just one of my “big ideas” that really is not right.

No other person can get inside of me and feel. It is the still, small voice that doesn’t give us logical reasons, explanations, or excuses. It Knows the way and it leads to more life.

I don’t know if I’ll ever do a firewalk again or not, but just because I’ve done it once, doesn’t mean I’d feel OK to do it again without checking inside to see how I was feeling. With all of the positive outcomes, (and mistakes) I’ve made in my life, the one constant has been my sense of whether or not something was right (for me) or wrong  in that particular situation. I didn’t always listen to that voice, didn’t always want to…but I always knew.

When people are hard on themselves saying, “I knew that I shouldn’t have….(fill in the blank; dated that guy, bought that car, adopted that particular animal…) it is important to remember that you knew and that means you can trust your inner voice. And maybe even follow it next time!

Intuition is a spiritual faculty and does not explain, but simply points the way. Florence Scovel Shinn


Over the past year, a number of people have asked me if I’d consider doing shorter phone sessions and so, starting September 1st, I am going to be offering, (in addition to the full one hour regular sessions) shorter, 30 minute appointment times. The fee will be $35 for the 1/2 hr. time (the regular session will stay at $60).

If this is something that interests you, you can go to the “My Work: Private Sessions with Me” tab,  read more about my background and what a session with me is like, and if you’d like to set up a time, email me and we’ll go from there!  The link to this page is: https://whitefeatherfarm.wordpress.com/about/

The whisper

I was driving into my office on Friday morning and I saw a couple, loaded down with large backpacks, walking on the side of rt. 372. I knew them, (casually) and liked them very much, so turned around to see if they needed a ride. When they said yes, I knew that I was going to drive them all the way…I could feel that familiar sense in my gut saying, “This one is yours Mary.”

As their story unfolded, I found out that they were on a mission of sorts. They belong to a religious community that periodically sends out members to be available at large gatherings for support and aid of those attending, and they were on their way to one. As we drove along, I was rather surprised to find out that they were headed to Rochester NY (about a 5 hour drive) and yet they started out with only a little granola, some water, no money and a lot of faith.

I told them that I wanted to drive them all the way, but had to go back to my office for my appointments, and asked them if I could drop them off at my home and come back and we’d leave from there. They agreed and I must say, I think they were more stunned than I was.

I thought of the alternatives; drive them part way, let them take my car, and neither felt right. I try not to argue with my deeper knowing when it says to do something. Interesting how this came to mind, given my post yesterday about saying no to my mother’s request for me to get involved in her compter buying, and a request from a friend to foster a little dog for 3 weeks (I did tell my friend that if she’s take Luke and our 6 cats for the 3 weeks, I’d be happy to foster her little friend!)…I could feel that both of these, while being wonderful things to do, were not mine to do.

When my inner voice says to do something, the way is made clear, doors open, all the resources and energy I need are available and a sense of being almost taken along on a journey (that is somehow bigger than me), is present. When I try to do something that my inner voice is backing away from, saying, “Don’t do this.” and I go ahead because I think “I should”, it is a draining experience for all.

I drove 11 hours on Friday and got back home late at night feeling uplifted, refreshed and renewed.

“None of us will every accomplish anything excellent or commanding except when he listens to this whisper which is heard by him alone.” 
Ralph Waldo Emerson

What will my intuition toss up to me today?!

My friend's daughter, Delaney. I noticed that she had 2 different socks on and her mom said (with a big smile), "She is always doing things like that!"

A couple of weeks ago, I wrote that Gordon Ramsay was coming to our little town (Cambridge NY) to film an episode of his new series, Hotel Hell. I also wrote that I didn’t have any interest in watching it, which was true. During the buildup to the show, the town was buzzing with energy. Some people were excited and happy, others indifferent or critical. As I began to listen and observe what was happening around me (and inside of me), it felt like there was the potential for a good time, but I also watched myself trying to be uninterested. There was a part of me that thought I shouldn’t care that this was happening.

One of my “rules for living” is to see the world as freshly as possible, to always trust my intuitive feelings, and to go with the positive pull of Life, even when it doesn’t makes sense. Especially when it doesn’t make sense. Even when it means that I might look foolish. I finally let myself be pulled into the adventure, until I noticed that every time I drove into town, I was trying to catch a glimpse of the chef and crew.

When several people in town (who read my blog) asked me what I thought about it all, and I said I thought it was fun, I was met with questioning looks like, “What? I thought you wrote that you didn’t like things like this?”  The gist of what I had previously written was, “trust your feelings”. If you are watching or participating in something that is making you uncomfortable and tense, if a deep inner voice (not the ego’s critical, fearful, judgemental voice) is saying, “this is wrong, this doesn’t feel good. Stop it. Get out.” then listen to it. Don’t be afraid of what the crowd will think, follow your own heart. I wrote that what I observe, I will eventually feel in my body and energy field, and I was observing a lot of fun.

A few days before the actual filming started, I thought, “I would like to be invited over there”. That was it. I had the thought and let it go. Friday afternoon, I was finishing up some email correspondence and a friend called and said, “I have been invited to the hotel for a special surprise Saturday morning and can bring a couple of friends. Do you want to come?” I was speechless. My previous intention came to mind instantly and I said yes!

I wrote in my blog on Friday that noticing when things were different was one of the ways to open doors, and by Saturday evening, I could have filled several pages with “What was different in the past 24 hrs!”

Every single person, event and circumstance is multi-faceted. When someone says to me that a person is “a jerk”, I know that they mean that the side of that person being shown to them is a jerk. We call out the aspects of life that fit our belief systems. I still don’t want to watch reality TV, have no interest in witnessing anyone get yelled at, or put down, but this was not the part of the event that I lined up with. The Saturday surprise was a blast. (I am not allowed to talk about what happened until after the show airs sometime in the Spring). Everyone was kind and fun and we had a delicious time!

It is always with excitement that I wake up in the morning wondering what my intuition will toss up to me, like gifts from the sea. I work with it and rely on it. It’s my partner“. Jonas Salk