ask, and the door will be opened…but we have to be willing to walk through it

I had a couple of dreams last night in which I felt isolated and alone. As I thought about the meaning of these dreams, it seemed like they were telling me that, although I felt good at a conscious level, something else was going on inside that I wasn’t acknowledging. When I moved to Montpelier,…

a simple tool

  I often take my 2-year-old grandson, Griffin, to the library on rainy days, and the other day, I overheard a woman remark that she really enjoyed seeing the toddlers playing there. I loved her observation, and was about to agree with her, but she quickly followed up by adding, “It is such a shame…

loving the mystery

  Last Thursday, I drove by a house that almost took my breath away. I parked my car and walked down the old tree-lined street, from the house to downtown Burlington, imagining what it would be like to call this home. I’ve been looking at houses around the area for several years, but none have…

Joining with the spirit of life

Yesterday afternoon I sat down at my computer and wrote a little story, imagining myself back in high school but instead of recalling myself as I always had been: poor student, drinking too much, smoking cigarettes, feeling inadequate and trying so hard to fit in, I saw myself as a girl who had just "woken…

Be a good friend…to yourself…and change your world

Watching the Steve Jobs documentary, One Last Thing, something that I found very interesting were the comments made by the people he had intimately known. One man, whom he'd been friends with for years, basically said that Steve was an incredible friend: loving, caring, and generous with his time. Another said that Steve Jobs eventually…

As within, so without

Many years ago, a woman whom I'd had a fairly on and off again friendship with, sent me a letter outlining, in no uncertain terms, things about me that she disliked. My first reaction wasn't, "Oh thank you so much for helping me to see myself more clearly", but I didn't shut down either, and…

Building a case….for a perfect life

One thing that I've noticed, in both myself and in others, is the tendency to build a case against the present "difficulty" in hopes of leaving it behind. Every romantic relationship that I ended, I first thought I needed to build a case against him: he was unavailable emotionally or too needy, too boring and…

Easy…does it!

The other day, I decided to switch back to my old style of running shoe. The minimalist shoes were just too cold for winter running. It's been almost 2 years since I made the change, and I couldn't even remember what brand of shoe I wore (but I used to save my last pair so…

Lovely thoughts

I wrote a few weeks ago about my sons taking over the planning of the Christmas party (at our house), how this was really new for me, and that I was somewhat excited about it. But as the actual event got closer (and the number of people coming grew), my anticipation turned into anxiety. No…

guilty pleasures

There are times when I do not want to think, and I've  found a new little "guilty pleasure*" that helps me accomplish just that: a TV show named, "Say Yes to the Dress". Jack doesn't quite share my unbridled enthusiasm, but even though he doesn't want to admit it, he kind of likes it too. I…