A shadowy past …a clear present…a different future

We had Thanksgiving dinner with my family this year. When my brother announced that he'd be hosting the day (late last summer) I didn't think I'd be going. So many family holiday gatherings have been less than joy-filled for me. At times they seemed more like emotional endurance contests, than times of happy connection and…

The “what ifs”

I went to be Wed. night saying to myself (over and over like a mantra), "The perfect place for us will present itself and it will be even better than I can imagine. I am getting excited to see how this unfolds!". I got up early Thursday morning, checked my emails to see if any…

Change

I grew up going to the horse races at Saratoga with my father. I truly loved this as a child but by my late 30's I didn't like going at all anymore. The few times that I tried to go; to join in what others thought was fun, and to squelch my inner discomfort, by…