fear, curiosity, fear, curiosity….

Several days ago, I walked to the bank to make a deposit but when I got there, I realized that I couldn’t go into the lobby. Then I thought maybe I could make a deposit at the ATM. The directions on the ATM machine said to deposit checks and cash without an envelope, so after…

saving face…why?

One day last week, I woke up in the middle of the night and the words, “I am so lonely!” shot out of my mouth. I don’t remember this ever happening before. The feeling that accompanied this outburst was despair. It was a dark moment. I felt like I might be dying. It passed quickly,…

ask, and the door will be opened…but we have to be willing to walk through it

I had a couple of dreams last night in which I felt isolated and alone. As I thought about the meaning of these dreams, it seemed like they were telling me that, although I felt good at a conscious level, something else was going on inside that I wasn’t acknowledging. When I moved to Montpelier,…

a guide from beyond?

This morning on my run, I thought about the coronavirus in a new way. My first thought was that a virus is a living thing. The thought that followed had to do with a little spiky foot-exercise ball that I’d gotten a few months ago (photo below) and how much it looks like the virus.…

an opportunity…

My sister, Jayne, read this Rumi poem to me this morning. It moved me so powerfully that I wanted to share it with you...it seems to speak to the opportunity being presented to us during these amazingly challenging times. QUIETNESS Inside this new love, die. Your way begins on the other side. Become the sky,…

the living mosaic

Several days ago, I was talking with someone in my family who was in real distress over a situation in his life. The more he talked, the more I felt the discomfort growing inside, but instead of offering an open, nonjudgmental, presence, I gave him “advice” on how he could take better care of himself,…

choosing the way I respond to life…

I decided to go for a solitary hike on Saturday. I’ve been a hiker for most of my adult life, but I’ve never quite felt safe going alone. I’ve always admired women who could do this, and enjoy it, but when I was alone, I felt hyper-vigilant and that wasn’t very relaxing. So on Saturday,…